When I look at my children, especially around the holidays, I feel like their childhood is going by way too fast! There are wonderful parts to their growing up, but it leaves me in a weird, somewhat lost position. I try to notice the little things and appreciate the way they are growing into kind, capable human beings.
- Lex took care of a bug all on his own the other day. It was a little winged thing. Eve shrieked (she’s dramatic), but Lex grabbed a tissue. When he saw it, he decided to take it outside instead of squishing it. He got a cup and a stiff paper and took care of the bug. It took him two tries, but he didn’t stop, didn’t ask for help, and didn’t even think twice about doing the job.
- Eve went to her first school dance. I think she was a little nervous, but she wouldn’t admit it. It was a Halloween dance and costumes got you a discount at the door, so she put her on her Luna Lovegood outfit. We picked up a few of her friends along the way and they all had a great time.
- Picking up her friends last night was the first time I’ve had passengers in the back seat of my car in a long time! It surprised me to think about. The kids can now stay home alone, so I rarely have both of them with me at the same time. Usually I’m alone in the car or I have one kid with me in the front seat and the other kid home. When we go out as a family we always take Alan’s car. I’ve gone from giant carseats to a largely unused back seat. Weird.
- Lex’s voice has dropped and Eve had acne and a developing body.
- Eve is planning a Halloween party on her own (with my $$, of course) and carved a Jack-O-Lantern today, all on her own.
- They are both basically the same height as me. The other day Alan was convinced that Lex was taller than me and wanted us to stand back-to-back. Lex took some convincing. I don’t think he wants to be taller, or to acknowledge it anyway. When I talk to them I’m looking straight ahead, and when they hug me we do the “dance” of arms, who goes over, who goes under.
The list goes on. What happened to these adorable little things?
We used to take walks together, splash in puddles, do craft projects, go everywhere together, read stories, snuggle, make presents for teachers and cookies for classmates, and smile for photos. We were like the three amigos. Now it’s like four adults living in one house together. Not exactly, of course, because they ARE still kids, but they are so independent and self-sufficient and into their own activities. Eve will spend hours up in her room, sewing or crafting. Lex will spend hours on Minecraft, then want to talk about it when he turns the computer off. He’s rocking his drums these days. I can’t wait to see him perform with the jazz band. She likes to draw and bake. She’s got the holiday enthusiasm that I so adore, but always wants to do things on her own schedule. She decorated for Halloween this year, all on her own, at 5am on a Saturday morning!
I think the point of this post is that I have amazing children who are all too quickly outgrowing their childhood. I feel more like an observer and less like one of the team these days. I guess I need to get my own hobbies now. :/
Or maybe I’ll just lose myself in the blog for awhile, and drag you along too. :)