So being at work is hard. Today is the
first day I haven’t gone home at lunch time and it looks like
this may have to be the norm going forward. One of the
activites required of me at my new job is to run a series of
webcasts, all of which have been scheduled from 12:00pm –
1:30pm EST… which definitely cuts into my long lunch breaks.
So now I’m torn. I want to do the job well, obviously, and
don’t want to be difficult on my first week here, but I also
want to make sure my baby gets the best care possible. So I’m
basically giving myself a self-induced guilt trip. :/ On top of
that, I really don’t like pumping at work. Well, I don’t like
pumping in general, but I like it even less at work. And I
really miss my boys! Just pile on the guilt. I keep reminding
myself that tons of people go back to work and leave their
babies with caregivers, and I’m leaving mine with daddy, so
there is no need for guilt. Unfortunately I’m not very good at
reassuring myself. I’m going to have to talk to Alan soon so he
can reassure me. He’s good at that :) For now I’ll just try to
concentate on work and try not to miss him too much. The end of
the day is nearing…