Hi. It’s me. With kids growing and doing their own teenage things and all, I have less adorable kid things to post about. So, here’s a post about me. Maybe.

I signed up for a personal trainer this week. I have been feeling pretty crappy about my physical fitness lately. My new job is less stress, but also gets me WAY fewer steps each day! Lots of sitting on my butt. So I’ve gained even more weight. And my sciatic pain is starting to return. 😭 Between that and the spare monster truck tire around my midsection, I think I’ve lost control of my physical situation. So, I emailed the gym (that I rarely go to) and asked about personal training. They set me up with a trainer who goes by they/them and looks like they would fit in just fine with my teenagers! I haven’t decided yet if that’s good or bad. LOL. I had my first session yesterday and they were very nice. It sort of felt good to be back in the gym again, but also was way embarrassing. I scheduled another session for tomorrow. I gotta get my shi!t together before too much longer. I’m not getting any younger. That said, I’m several glasses in to a bottle of wine at the moment. So…. 🤷🏻‍♂️

On other fronts, work is going well, though still pretty boring. People gush about how great I am and how much they love having me at the library. I’m happy for the change of pace and more flexible schedule. Definitely miss the kids and friends at DBS though. And I’d love to find a middle ground on the pace of things. Not too slow, but not as fast as school either. The “Goldilocks Zone” of employment responsibilities. LOL.

I’ve been parenting teens lately. One is struggling with life and failing multiple classes because busy work is boring. Not wrong, but not ok either. He got fired from his job for just not going. He’s excited for an FRC event this weekend, and I was really hoping he’d get his butt to school this week so I didn’t have to think up any consequences (like missing the FRC event!). Thankfully he did! The other one is a tidal wave of emotions. We were at the doctor the other day and got a low dose prescription for anxiety meds. So far, no change. (but it’s only been a few days) She completely fell apart this afternoon and couldn’t bring herself to make it to work. I literally drove her there and we sat in the parking lot for 10 minutes while she cried and talked about how horrible her job is and what an rough life she has. I wanted to scream, “KIDS THESE DAYS!?!” but I didn’t. Instead I bought myself a bottle of wine. Sigh.

The third kid, really the first kid!, is so far away that I don’t see his ups and downs anymore. He is super busy with school and music, but he’s always happy to have family chats and will be coming home for a week next week. I can’t wait to squeeze him again. He loves me and I love him and I love that he loves me. I’m a lucky momma. 💗

I guess that’s enough rambling for tonight. I just tried to find a good photo to add to this post, but all my pics lately are quite boring. Sigh.

Anyway, that’s all for tonight. Love you all! 💗💗