And I don’t cry often these days. My job
is getting worse and worse – and I thought my last company was
dysfunctional! I was tired from a long, stupid day, and so I
left a few minutes early to pick Lex up from daycare. Normally
I get there right at 5:00pm and most of the other kids are
gone. Today I got there about 5 minutes earlier and arrived
right during the pick-up rush. I passed the owner first and she
told me Lex had a rough day and they thought he might be sick
again. Then I turned the corner into the baby room and found a
flurry of people around Lex sitting on the floor in the middle
of the room, pacifier in his mouth, moaning and rocking back
and forth. It broke my heart. Other mothers were stepping over
him to get their children ready to go and the daycare teachers
were talking to the mothers and packing up the other babies.

Now logically I’m sure that wasn’t the
case all day. I know he is very cuddly and they are working on
having him play on the floor with the other kids and be held
less these days. When he first started he was new and they
loved holding such a cuddly baby. Now they have younger babies
(as young as 3 months old) who need more holding and attention.
Lex isn’t too happy about this. I’m sure he was well cared for
all day, but just the sight of him in the middle of the floor,
rocking back and forth, was horrible.

So I drove home in tears. I so badly wish I didn’t have to
work. Won’t someone give me a hefty salary just for being a
good mommy???

PS: Everyone
please send “get well soon” vibes to my grandma who is having
both knees replaced tomorrow morning. Keep her in your thoughts
and prayers. Thanks.